Introspections

I miss the Philippines. I miss home.

I don't get stricken by homesickness all the time. It's only when I think of how nice it would have been if we went on a vacation to Iligan City during the holidays or how nice it would be if I could go back to the Philippines next week. You see, I already had a round-trip ticket bound to the Philippines for next week supposedly...but I cancelled it. I had to. It's a conflict of schedule. The worst thing about it was I already told my family that I was coming and it was so heartbreaking to take it back. I shouldn't have told them. I hate giving people false hope especially that it's my family. I'm just glad they understand...at least, I hope they do.

The only person that keeps my spirit up right now is my husband. I am so lucky to have somebody in my life who understands and accepts not only the good things in me but as well as my shortcomings. And for that, I thank my husband and I thank God with all my heart.

I have really been blessed. And I am so thankful most especially for the intangible blessings that God had given me. To be able to love and be loved, forgive, understand and accept...these are just a few of the many grateful things that I am so thankful for. Material things deteriorate and when I die, not a single thing will be of so much value anymore, not even today that I'm still alive.

In my life, I only have one goal - before I die, I am going to "give back". Giving back not only means helping other people and sharing the blessings, it is also teaching people "how to fish" stand on their own feet. Amazingly, my husband and I share the same passion. And someday soon, we will fulfill it.